I Work Out

"I know we are in the right place," I say as I turn to my husband, "Because I feel like shit."

We are often taught to go with what feels good. Go with the flow. If you're not "feelin'" it then move on. Through this we forget that sometimes things are messy before they are great. We miss out because it's not all rainbows and butterflies right off the bat. We forget that sometimes theres a battle involved. Just like working out, it sucks but it is rewarding.

Whenever I make gigantic spiritual strides, or even little tiptoes in the right direction, I'm stormed.  Like when you work out extensively and the next day you're endlessly sore, barely able to walk. Only a good workout can cripple you in such a manner. I'm not bombed by my surroundings. Not by my peers or family. No. By the enemy. For those who don't believe specifically in God and the Devil, you may recognize that there is still positive and negative energy in this world we live in. When you move forward in positivity, the negativity naturally tries to bring you down, same idea. Be aware that just because it doesn't feel good right away, doesn't mean continuing it, won't feel good in the end.

Now the way the enemy personally attacks me, in attempt to halt my pursuit, is anxiety and depression. The glory of God is being reviled, and the enemy hates that! He makes me feel isolated, forsaken and omitted. This is my soreness after a spiritual workout. Remember when you're sore you know you did something for the better. This is not God causing the soreness! That is not our Lord and Savior, no! God is telling me that the battle is already won and I can cast the enemy out, yet casting the enemy out calls for more working out. Our strength will build with each work out! The enemy feels threatened by me. Threatened that I will fulfill my destiny and be an omnipotent warrior of God. A powerhouse of a mother! A luminous wife! I will be mighty in my spirit, heart and soul!

The enemy is hoping I fall for the lie and "go with what feels good." I don't want to be a limp noodle of a spirit, I want to have the strength of a lion, a bear, a rhino! Anyone who consistently works out knows that eventually the soreness fades, your strength overrides it.  Spirituality is no different.